I have nightmares each week about that Friday in MayOne phone call from you and my entire world was changedTrust that you betrayed, confusion that still lingersTook everything I loved and crushed it in between your fingersAnd I doubt you ever think about the damage that you didBut I hold onto every detail like my life depends on itMy undying love, now I hold it like a grudgeAnd I hear your voice every time that I think I’m not enough
And I try to be tough, but I wanna screamHow could anybody do the things you did so easily?And I say I don’t care, I say that I’m fineBut you know I can’t let it goI’ve tried, I’ve tried, I’ve tried for so longIt takes strength to forgive, but I don’t feel strong
The arguments that I have won against you in my headIn the shower, in the car and in the mirror before bedYeah, I’m so tough when I’m alone and I make you feel so guiltyAnd I fantasize about a time you’re a little fuckin’ sorryAnd I try to understand why you would do this all to meYou must be insecure, you must be so unhappyAnd I know in my heart hurt people hurt peopleAnd we both drew blood, but, man, those cuts were never equal
And I try to be tough, but I wanna screamHow could anybody do the things you did so easily?And I say I don’t care, I say that I’m fineBut you know I can’t let it goI’ve tried, I’ve tried, I’ve tried for so longIt takes strength to forgive, but I don’t feel strong
Ooh, do you think I deserved it all?Ooh, your flowers filled with vitriolYou built me up to watch me fallYou have everything and you still want more
I try to be tough, I try to be meanBut even after all this, you’re still everything to meAnd I know you don’t care, I guess that that’s fineBut you know I can’t let it goI’ve tried, I’ve tried, I’ve tried for so longIt takes strength to forgive, but I’m not quite sure I’m there yetIt takes strength to forgive, but








